I’ve hesitated for a long time to write in any language besides English in my blog or in my books because when I mix languages, I lose my reader. But, it’s not uncommon for thoughts to manifest themselves in languages other than English and I have to translate them into English when speaking to people who don’t know the language that popped into my head. The most natural way to express myself is to indeed switch languages mid thought, but then I risk losing the person or people with whom I am communicating. But now I really don’t care if the person reading this can not understand everything that I am writing. This is also a catharsis for myself and if it comes out in tongues, so be it.

The phrase “retrouver mon axe” came into my mind a few days ago after reading to my nephew and niece. It means to “rediscover or find again one’s center, one’s axis”.

Et c’est ca que j’en ai besoin, je veut retrouver mon axe car je me sens un peu “dispersa” (italiano per ’scattered’). Between the marketing of the book contest, the many technical problems I’ve been plagued with this past month, sending books to reviewers, thinking about international deals and tradefairs, being unable to walk normally, teaching part time, making videos of the books and all the other tasks I have, I feel like I’ve been living by task list and not by my own volition. The books are an extension of myself and they are my career; however, being an entrepreneur all the time, night and day, weekday and weekend, is draining.

Not like a dervish spinning around, I am wobbling at a fast pace from one mental exercise to another, without connecting to what is driving me. Luckily, I do have reminders from people who support what I am doing and believe in my mission to make more people multilingual and globally oriented. These emails and calls are a great support.

But now, it’s time for me to stop working and just relax. Along with help from other, I’ve built the foundations of my mission: the books, the contest, the videos, the website, etc. I can step back and see the flowers grow and witness how people are touched by the education I am offering.

Senza il viaggio interiore, non si puo’ fare qualcosa di bello nella vita’ esterna, ma’ ci vuole di tempo per ritrovarsi. Piano piano…

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